“To the praise of the glory of his grace, wherein he hath made us accepted in the beloved.” Eph. 1:6
Most of the time, I asked myself this question? Am I worthy? Do I deserve this pain? Am I incapable of being loved? Am I not that enough to be given the rightful love and attention? Didn’t I deserve to be happy? Am I undesirable? These– are all over my mind. all day all night, questioning why. Why do I have to feel this way.
Maybe I was just over analyzing things but these feelings are what other people made me feel. Its as if you are a gift when you first meet them, then all of a sudden they will treat you like a trash.
Maybe I am not confident to see the beauty in me that makes other people treat me like NOBODY.
Maybe I am afraid to admit that I myself thinks I am not worthy.
Maybe I cannot accept the fact that there are some people who will leave you for no reason at all.
Maybe I cannot see myself without them.
Maybe I am afraid to say NO.
Maybe I forgive too much.
Maybe I care too much.
Maybe I see the good in them. That I can act like a superwoman trying to save them and fix their lives.
Maybe I am afraid to be left alone. Afraid that I may not be accepted.
Maybe its just my pride.
Or maybe, I do not love myself.
Maybe I cannot stand tall.
But MAYBE, when all these maybe’s will be gone, I can say to myself that: